More Little Monster Poses

Five Little Horns - Poses

by =marinaneira on deviantART

Good morning, all! Here are a couple more poses of my yet-to-be-named little monster with five horns.

Today is off to a pretty good start! When I went to bed last night I got a sudden feeling like I was supposed to go to work today. So this morning, after I got up, I had to hurry to get everything done early just in case, while I waited for my boss to text me back and let me know whether I was needed today or not. Happily, it turned out I wasn't, which resulted in me having taken my shower, fed the cats, cleaned the litterbox, done the dishes and had lunch all by 11:00am.

Now I have the entire day ahead of me, to draw and practice my watercolors, and not a single other chore to do. I am delighted! I'm probably go and lie down for a bit right now since I didn't have a great night, not being sure whether I was really off today or not.

Something really strange happened to me as I was drifting to sleep last night, probably the product of stress and three cups of coffee in one day, one of those right before bed, too.

You see, it happened to me once before, after lying awake in bed for some time, that I began to have trouble swallowing. I was basically thinking about it too hard, suddenly wondered what would happen to me if I couldn't swallow anymore for some reason (crazy, I know) and wouldn't you know it, all of a sudden I couldn't swallow. The mind plays funny tricks. It was like I'd lost control of those muscles. Maybe I was half-asleep, who knows, but I sure as heck panicked. Eventually I could swallow again but it took a lot of concentration and for a few seconds I was sincerely frightened.

Well, last night something similar began to happen, only this time I was concerned with my breathing. Basically I began to worry about what would happen to me if I had that same experience as that time, but with my breathing rather than my swallowing. It didn't happen, but I had a hard time relaxing and falling asleep. These worries seem to assail me when I am stressed out, and make me wish I had someone next to me in bed that I could cling to for comfort. I can't wake up and bother my mother who gets up at 4:00am or so to go to work. So it's a little scary. I know my mind is only playing tricks on me and my body isn't going to forget how to swallow or breathe. But I am scared that my own stress could do something like that to me.

This reminds me of a couple of night terrors I had some years back. It was only twice, I think two nights in a row. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling the most pressing fear you can imagine. Think of what it would be like to suddenly feel all the fear that it was possible to feel, but without a real reason, and what's more, being aware that there is no reason for your fear, yet being unable to do anything to control it. Those times I did wake up my mother, who was very confused and never really woke up completely, so it wasn't much comfort.

Looking back, while I don't want to experience that again, I'm half glad I did. It's amazing what the mind can do, all by itself. To think that one could experience such abject terror with no logical reason is fascinating, don't you think?

Anyway, I'm off to draw, or paint, or work on my book, I don't even know yet. All I know is I should try to drink less coffee today --just in case!

-Marina